Post by gotz2luvre on Jun 27, 2007 22:02:24 GMT -5
So i know I have skipped many subjects and I apologize for it but sometime soon it will all come together. This is about my brother n law who was more like a brother to me and was a great uncle to my girls.He was in a terrible accident a few years ago he was 30 years old and it left him permanently disabled he loved to work loved life but felt as if his life was taken away from him and he lost his spark but always somehow managed to make us smile or laugh when we were down.He would come and visit us and stay for a week or two at times and we would have long talks and he would tell me he prays for god to take him and I would say he'll take you when he is ready and its not Ur time.He was so very sad and it was ashame because he was such a good man he wanted a family and children but knew he never would.And he still would say why god take me take please I'm in pain I dont want to be in pain see his injury caused him to get a disease called RSD which is a nerve disease which cause swelling skin discoloration and temperature changes in the body along with numbness.Another nite we talked and he said again please god why wont he take me and I said its not ur time but if and when he does promise me you will always be with us and protect us be our angel and he told me he would.Well god finally took him 1 year later he was at our home visiting my husband and I and the girls that day and my husband drove him home and everything seemed fine and we got a call later on that evening he died.Well we were devastated even though we knew it was what he wanted but still the fact that you love someone so much and then they go wow and he was still young. We went right to the house so we could be with him before they took his body and I laid in the bed and held him and just sobbed and told him not to forget his promise and how I'll never let my youngest daughter who was his only goddaughter that he spoiled she was 2 years old I will always talk to her about him and show her pictures of him so she wouldnt forget him my other girls were 12 and 10 and they would share memories with her of him as well. He wanted to be cremated so thats what the family did but then after his death the family my husbands parents brothers and sisters and us all parted ways and I realized he was the glue that held us all together sad but true.A month or two went by and he always had a habit when he stayed at our home we had a door that connected to my husband and I room to the babies room and it lead to my side of the bed and I would get up and he would be standing there asking my husband for a pillow or blanket.Well he past and I would feel his presence which woke me up from a sound sleep and I could smell his smell which was so good cause he would mixed colognes together and it was very distinctive odor. I never said anything about his presence until my 12 year old was afraid to go upstairs and I asked her why and she told me I cant tell you and I said sweetie you can tell me anything and she said mom Uncle Darren is up at the top of the steps waving at me and I'm scared and I was a Lil shocked because she could see him and I believed her because of things experiences in-the past I never doubted she had a gift.And I told her not to be afraid he loves us and is visiting and she was like but I'm scared cause hes dead and I was telling her its his spirit and he loves you and maybe he wants to tell you something well she was like no way mom and I said OK its OK.Our youngest would be playing and stop and call his name as if she has saw him to but she was not afraid she would laugh as if she were playing with him.Me I felt blessed that he was with us cause he was our angel in my heart I know he was.He was with us pretty often and we all have grown use to it as the years went by he was around less but it was OK.My husband his oldest brother was in a car accident and it was horrible two tractor trailer tires came off a tracker and bounced over the opposite side of the highway and hit my husband one smashing through the top of the van the other smashing in the drivers side.My husband was pinned by 2 enormous tires and the air bag deflated he should have been dead but he lived why because I believe his brother was his angel and protected him.Unfortunately my husband gets the same disease his brother had RSD which was cause from the accident and now suffers with severe pain and is also disabled at 35 years old.My husband was a joker and he would mock his brother and thought he exaggerated his pain and make fun of it which was mean nd i said its not right to do that cause karma and hes like get the frig outta here and low and behold it came and now my husband is 42 addicted to prescription drugs and well life for me raising 3 kids ages 18,16,9 and my husband and working 45 50 hours a week is well very trying but I maintain my sanity and do the best that I can do but thank you for reading and I know I start to lose you near the end sorry I'm tired and getting ready to go to sleep early to get up early to go to work and put food on the table for my family wish me luck and hey a nice prayer would be greatly appreciated,Maria
